I haven't posted a blog for a while, because life has been unpredictable and crazy for a while. Now, I know this blog post is going to offend some people, but it's my blog and I'm going to write what I want to.
Today I am going to vent about pregnancy. Now, I know I shouldn't bitch and complain because I know I am lucky to be able to get pregnant in the first place. And I am grateful, truly, I am. I can't wait to meet our little guy in a few months and overall the time has gone by really fast.
Pregnancy does suck though. Seriously, it sucks. I can say that because it's been really rough for me. First of all, I was already overweight before I got pregnant for the second time, from not having lost much weight after my first pregnancy miscarried. So already I was at a disadvantage.
Then, after several stressful weeks of constant going, going, going in March, I had to take a pee test. Yes, I had to pee in a cup and pour it into a jar that the lab gave me and keep that jar on ice for 24 hours, so they could check to see if I had proteins in my urine, which is a sign of preeclampsia. Luckily, I do not, but the whole experience sucked ass anyway.
After having to pee in a jar, I went back to my ob/gyn (who is fantastic by the way) and she asked me to do an early glucose test because diabetes runs (or ran, they are all dead now except my aunt and one cousin) in my father's family. So I drove into Great Falls, which is about 40 miles away and took the one hour glucose test, which I failed. I then got to go back in on Good Friday to take the 3 hour glucose test, which I also failed. So now I have to deal with gestational diabetes for the next few months; poking my finger 4 times a day and checking my blood sugar levels and counting every single carb I eat all day to get an amount of total carbs I've eaten in a day. It's getting less obnoxious has I get used to counting my carbs and poking my finger.
Today I had an appointment with a dietrician (sp?) who was amazing. But now I also have to give myself insulin shots at night to help with my fasting blood sugar levels. It will also help with my blood sugar throughout part of the next day. It's supposed to last between 14 and 16 hours, mostly doing its work while I'm sleeping. All of this poking of fingers and insulin shot nonsense, I was told will be done once our little guy arrives. Of course, they will still monitor me for a while to make sure things go back to the way they should be after I give birth to little guy, but everyone who is helping me with my gestational diabetes has been very hopeful, which eases some of my stress and anxiety about the whole situation.
So basically, for me, pregnancy is not awesome, in fact, it sucks, alot! Pregnancy sucks, but everything that comes after will be awesome and wonderful and I can't wait to meet our little dude!
